*BlackGravity

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MY time is almost up.

Journal Entry: Sat Jul 7, 2007, 2:15 PM

Emphysema is what they call it.

yes,thats what it is and i have it.

It wouldnt be so bad,but the fact is.. i only have one lung and the one that i have left is pretty bad. Emphysema

almost killed me a few weeks ago... my lung collapsed and i had to be rushed to the hospital,i past out before i got there,lack of air.. but i got there in time for them to insert a chest tube so a machine could breath for me,i was in the hospital for a little over a week.

i know this is whats going to kill me... when? i dont know.. but so0ner then i'd like..the condition was caused from smoking for so many years.. and at tumes i would chain smoke like a house on fire... so i guess this is something i could have prevented.. but.. cant so much about it now... i did stop smoking.. and urge all of you that do.... stop if you can,cause when you cant breath.... nothing else matters!...

i had my lung removed almost 14 years ago... i lived a rough life... and paod for it one knight and caught a .38 in my chest... scrambled my right lung so bad they just removed it.. and have lived without on for all of this time....

ill hang as long as i can... but if you ever see my page took down you'll know im gone... it was nice meeting all of you talented artist's and all of the friends i'vemade here... ill stick around as long as i can.... thank you for taking your time to read this..

-BG

KoMeGeTs0Me!

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Mood: Sadness
Listening to: Ice T.
Reading: An improved method 4 TIME CONTINUAL
Watching: 24
Playing: COD 4
Eating: nothing
Drinking: coca~cola

W3rD !

Mon Feb 19, 2007, 2:41 AM

another mech.... done.

been working alot to get as much mterial ready for my enrollment into school... most in my friends list and watch list has seen countless updates of the mech i have been working on,and im just about finished,just need to add some material,and set up a scene like i did for my dreadnought model...and take the time to render it and touch it up in photoshop.i just want to thank all of you thats taken the time to stop by abd keep tabs on my work.... thanks a ton all!!

-BG

KoMeGeTs0Me!

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Mood: Content
Listening to: Mantronix
Reading: ...
Watching: tinysorrowful
Playing: COD2
Eating: ding dongs
Drinking: coca~cola

just here... i guess...

Fri Feb 16, 2007, 4:11 AM

feeling ..... lost.

ok.. heres the deal.. i work for Frieghtliner/WesternStar trucks,and both are owned by chrystler and if you have been keeping up on your news,you'll know that they just announced a huge layoff.. 13,000 workers through out the U.S. ..and as of right now,it has me on the list for the layoff... i have almost 10 years in there and you have to have atleast 12 to 20 to avoid the layoff. The only upside to this is that we (all laid off) get NAFTA grants and pretty good unemploment,so i'm looking forward to getting into a school i've been wanting to for years... it's the Art Instatue of Portland. so some time in the summer i will enroll for evening classes and try to get my skillz to leet status so i can land a job doing what i like... the layoff is the end of next month (March) so... keep your fingers crossed and wish me luck.. i will keep all watchers up to date... and hope i can get my skill sharp as a razor.

KoMeGeTs0Me!

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Mood: Worried
Listening to: christopher cross
Reading: what im type'n
Watching: tinysorrowful
Playing: with my yahoo and jo jo's
Eating: breakfast
Drinking: coca~cola

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Thu Feb 15, 2007, 11:48 AM

KoMeGeTs0Me!

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Mood: Tired
Listening to: ......
Reading: ...
Watching: tinysorrowful
Playing: ...
Eating: .....
Drinking: coca~cola

still a bit rough...

Sun Feb 11, 2007, 3:56 AM

still dealing with my probs..

well, i got a few things taken care of.. i still have some serious sh&t to deal with ,but for now i can breath a little... i want to thank all of you that commented on my last entry... i had no idea i had so much support from you guys... thanks a ton!!.. you all were another reason for me to get what i had to do,done sooner.. i think if i'm gone from this place to0 long... i'd start missing all of ya.(sounds corny.. but hey).. thanks again all!!..

i'm still here.